Judas was picked to be one of a very special group called "The Twelve."

They were handpicked by Jesus after a long, 12 hour, night of prayer.

Luke 6:12,13 KJV
"And it came to pass in those days, that he went out into a mountain to pray, and continued all night in prayer to God.

And when it was day, he called unto him his disciples: and of them he chose twelve, whom also he named apostles."

The certified call was to be an extention of the personal ministry of Jesus and later reign on 12 thrones in the kingdom of God.

Matthew 10:1
"And when he had called unto him his twelve disciples, he gave them power against unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of sickness and all manner of disease."

When the "Twelve" heard Jesus speak, they heard the "logos" or mind of God.

When they touched Jesus they were touching God.

What could go wrong?

John 13:30
"He then having received the sop went immediately out: and it was night."

Darkness colored the night sky but also filled the broken soul.

Judas rubbed elbows with Divinity and yet walked away.

Luke 22:3-6 KJV
"THEN entered Satan into Judas surnamed Iscariot, being OF THE number of the TWELVE.
And he went his way, and communed with the chief priests and captains, how he might betray him unto them.
And they were glad, and covenanted to give him money. And he promised, and sought opportunity to betray him unto them in the absence of the multitude."

MARK 2
Jesus could forgive sin,
save the sinner,
be the church's bridegroom and
was Lord of the Sabbath.

Jesus was all Judas needed but Judas threw it all away for the cut rate price of a pitiful slave on an auction block.

He chose, as a special selected,
Spirit anointed,
God empowered,
Apostle of Jesus Christ, to preach the truth but
accept the lie;
to looked at heaven's gate but
choose the road to hell.

He complained to the priests, he had made a big mistake, threw down the 30 shekels of shame, sank into a bottomless depression and chose death rather than carry the crushing guilt another day.

He chose suicide over ministry.

He paid a horrendous price for his guilt when Jesus would have taken it away for free.